To keep on or give up?

I have talked about weight here, here, and here but to get you up to speed (nah, too long, to sum up) I have been trying, since Griffin's birth, to get back to my pre-baby size.

As of this moment, I am exactly 7lbs away.

And to be honest, I'm trying to decide if it's really worth it to loose the 7lbs.

At my skinniest, I was a size 6 and could fit into some size 4s, depending. Which is pretty darn thin. But it was also a lot of work.

Currently I'm a size 8. And I have a whole closet full of size 8 & 10 dresses and pants that I like.

So while a part of me would love to be back to the same size I was when I was 26, another part of me thinks a 31 (next week!) year old, mother of 2, who is a size 8 and can have the occasional cookie or glass of wine and still fit into her work-clothes the next day is pretty d@mnm good.

Granted, I still need to work a bit more exercise into my routine. And I still need to eat well. But maybe I'll stop actively dieting. Maybe. I don't want to end up looking like I did when I was at my heaviest (I really didn't like living in my own skin then - and if you want to see pics, click on the 1st link). I was a size 20 then.

I go back and forth on this question daily (usually around lunch-time). Maybe next year, once both kids are potty trained, we'll look into joining a gym again and we can all go and be active... it's just hard to find time, and harder to make myself make time. I know being active is what's going to keep me healthy (as well as help me maintain my weight), but by the time the kids are in bed I'm so completely unmotivated to do anything other than watch Dr Who or work (although, in my defense, Dr Who is awesome AND if I didn't work at night I wouldn't be able to get the bulk of my grading OR planning done... teaching high school English will eat all of your time).

Speaking of which, I should really be planning for next week - I have a sub plan to write and a project rubric to design.