The things we do for our kids...

Here's what we've been doing for the last 12-ish hours:

1:30pm - bottle, 1.5 oz
3:30pm - pumping, 1.5 oz
4:00pm - bottle, 1.5 oz
5:45pm - pumping, 3/4 oz
6:00pm - bottle, 1 oz
7:30pm - bottle, 2 oz
7:50pm - pumping, 3/8 oz
8:30pm - bottle, 1.5 oz
9:30pm - bottle, 2 oz (which he promptly spit up)
9:30pm - pumping, 1/4 oz (had to stop mid-pump to feed him)
10:30pm- bottle, 1oz
11:30pm- pumping, 1/2 oz
12:30am- bottle, 2 oz
4:45am - bottle, 2 oz
4:45am - pumping, 3/4 oz
5:30am - bottle, 1.5 oz
6:00am - bottle, 1 oz
6:30am - bottle, 1 oz
7:00am - pumping, 1/2 oz
7:10am - bottle, 1 oz
9:00am - bottle, 1 oz
9:10am - pumping, 1/2 oz
9:30am - bottle, 1 oz

It's currently 10:30. I pump again in 40 minutes. I've been pumping both sides for 15-20 minutes and as you can see, my biggest yield was 3/4 oz. *headdesk*

As you can also see, the only "break" we got was from 12:30 to 4:45 - although since Penelope woke up right as we were going to bed at 12:45, sleep wasn't achieved until well after 1am... and Griffin woke us up at 4:30 but it took 15 minutes to get ready to feed him/pump. So we got about 4 hours of sleep. It was all at once, so that was nice. I probably should have set my alarm to wake us up after 2 hours to feed him and pump but I'm exhausted and I know Bryan is as well.

Today will be more of the same... tomorrow will probably look similar.

Please send me ALL the good breastfeeding thoughts and/or prayers you have. I could use any help - hell, I'd take divine intervention at this point even though I'm an atheist.

In happier news, he's peeing like a champ so I know he's staying hydrated and is getting enough food. Is it enough to gain weight? I hope so! Our midwives come back on Thursday to weight him (recap, he lost 13 oz in 10 days = bad).

I've also consulted with an LC and she's set up a plan to help him gain weight and *hopefully* boost my supply. I see her on Thursday as well... G also gets his newborn pictures take Thursday. Thursday will be a busy day.

If I could have one wish for Mother's Day, it would be to make enough milk to feed my baby (and for him to be able to access that milk). My LC has a couple of theories why G isn't gaining and my supply is low. One day I'll post in detail - but that day isn't today. I have few moments where I can post... Bryan is running errands with P and G is asleep and due to wake up any minute. He was nice enough to let me take a shower, wash bottles, and start laundry but I doubt his tummy will let me post the novel I have on our breastfeeding saga.

I hope everyone is having a much more relaxing day than we are.

And I hope that all four of us get in a good long nap this afternoon.